Wise man?

am I? Today my reflections of the past months are still due for any sound verdict... Looking at my children, I feel I lost a battle...but not the war. Looking back on the past few weeks, flying in circles with Chinagirl I felt so much joy...but the end seams near and the verdict is probably sound....is it a Yes or No? Looking back, both main streams in current life are not compatible, I should focus on Koreaflyfisher acting as a wise man, casting his dry fly into a small stream, catching the happiness. Simultaneously, I should focus on Isabella, Carmen and Mees.... So I should regain the full energy of life. A wise man should not focus on flying circles at this time...but when I sleep and try to exclude the joy thoughts, turning my face to the wall, the wall turns into her face....Yes, the verdict is clear: I am a human being! whiwhawoewa, iets naisssssssssss